emotions..

those tricky little bastards.
they mess with your life, come at the wrong times, and aren't there when you need them.
they completely control your life.
and it's impossible to avoid them, unless you're a heartless psychopath, but not many of us are them.

the worst part is trying to figure a way to release them.
happiness is easy, a smile or a laugh.
but the worst are sadness or anger.
why?
sadness can easily turn into depression if mix in other feelings like anger and confusion if you leave it. but crying in front of others is hardly what anyone wants.
and anger can easily turn ugly, because you can hurt people you love.

i just need a release .

bipolarnight..

tonight has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions.
i've cried, laughed, cried again, and then smiled.
its like up and down and up and down and its just crazy!

i think everythings okay now, but one can only hope.

stillsick, so i'm cutting it short again,
but im feeling a bit better. so thats good!

greek mythology

this has to be one of my favorite things i've ever learned.
greek mythology is just incredibly interesting.
from the gods to the worship,
i kind of wish i had lived back then, just to see what it was like.

i personally like Poseidon the best.
just the thought of being king of the sea and have all these sea creatures around you.
gah, astounds me.

shortblog again,
but im still sick, and i'm trying to sleep.
haha, not happening well.
fu coughing.

maybe i'll just ask the gods to help.. ;D

sick?

bleh,
that's one word to sum everything up.
bleh.
i hate being sick, but apparently my immune system likes it.
so you know, home again today.
can't sleep + coughing up lungs.
not a good time.
short blog yes, but hey, im tired and sick.

i know that no one comments, but if someones reading this,
tell me,
whats the worst sickness you've had?

suicide...

touchy subject, i know.
but i just feel the need tonight.

death is the end of all.
personally, i don't think anyone should commit suicide.
you haven't been able to live your life.
you're cutting it short...too short.
i don't know how many people read this, if any.
but please, just follow these words.

live your life for the best times, and you'll be able to get through the worst times.
the world shits on everyone at some point in your life, you just have to have the courage to face it head on and tell the world to fuck off.
With the right people around you should have no problem.

daniel...please read this. don't do anything. for me.

fat sundays.

Sundays, next to Monday's, are the worst day of the week.
I think this because
1. you have to do homework now.
2. you have to go home & to bed earlier
3. your weekend is over
how is that appealing at all?
Luckily, i don't have school tomorrow, so i got to spend today just like any other sunday.
lazy.
i woke up, and i just lazed around until i decided to go to bestfriends house, and me, her, and my friend just kinda sat around and did nothing.
and isnt that the joys of being friends?
able to sit around on a sunday, eat, do nothing but talk on the computer, and make bracelets.

god i love life sometimes.

bracelets

oh back to the days of summer camp..

making bracelets with string was the shit. wasn't it?
well, when i went to summer camp it was.
that's exactly what i did today.
went to my bestfriends, and we just kinda chilled in her living room on the floor and made bracelets. it was awesome.

&&she brought me back those jellybracelets.
i enjoy them. more than i probably should.
but the fad with them is back in my opinion.
but hey, i'm just one opinion right?

bracelets pwn n00bz.

april tent sleepovers?

If there was ever a way to kill someone,
it would be putting them outside, in april, with snow still on the ground, in a tent.
guess what i did last night?
mhmm. i barely slept at all, because the person who was sleeping next to me decided:
1. to steal all possible blankets she could
2. to like, snore in my ear.
not exactly a fun night.
it started off fun, but then everyone dozed off, so not so fun.

i wonder who had the "bright" idea to sleep in tent, while there's still snow on the ground.
people these days.

rain...

One thing I love, is the feeling of rain drenching you.
And i mean getting COMPLETELY soaked.
One night I went out with my neighbor, at 2;30, in Hurricane Bill, because we got bored.
It was AMAZING. We were soaking wet, running around on a street, without shoes, having a time.
I'll never forget it.

But one thing that hasn't happened, that's on my top list of priorities,
is to kiss in the rain.
and when i say rain i hope you guys know that i mean rain that comes down hard.
that one kiss will let me die happy.
i don't even know whats so appealing about it,
but i guess its just the thought that you have no cares in the world because you're kissing that one person.

rain = love.

mud+dirt+strange green contraptions

Tonight was the best night ever.
Have you ever had one of those times when you really just wanna get your hands dirty?
well, instead of hands I got my shoes, pants, and feet dirty, but it was totally worth it.
Mud is actually quite a time.
I felt like such a little kid tonight. Ran around on sand piles, played on a big machine i probably shouldn't have played on, but hey, i'm a teenager, we're expected to do shit like this and have fun.
I can't wait for summer, going to do the exact same shit except it'll be warmer and no snow! LOL.

remember!; god made dirt. dirt don't hurt.

wakey wakey sleeping beauty

Do you know what it's like to not be able to sleep well?
Welcome to the land of the insomniacs.
This is a night-to-night thing for me.
My usual sleep time is sometime between 4;30 and 6.
unfortunately, as of right now, I don't think i'm getting much sleep tonight.
i feel wired.

but i've always wondered WHY.
WHY can't i sleep at night?
like, there's no reason to stay up.
no good shows.
no one to talk to.
dark as hell.
but yet you still can't sleep.

the night walked down the sky with the moon in her hand.

Justin Bieber Obsessions?

Everyone is apparently getting the 'Bieber Fever' except for a few people & myself.
Personally, his music is just not appealing, and I don't particully like his looks. One thing I will give him credit is that he CAN sing, but his voice is too high for a 16 year old in my opinion.
Also, he became famous too fast. Perhaps if he had gradually come into the buisness, or if he didn't use the word 'shawty'. Maybe in a rap song, but when you're a white boy singing pop, just no.
That's my opinion, you can hate, but yeah. I don't like Justin Bieber.

Sunshine!

Holy crap,
what a day!
Woke up and it was 5 degrees, and now it's like 15!
way to go labrador!
so, i'm in a terribly awesome mood. like, i can't believe it.
the sun always cheers me up, makes me feel alive.
like i said last time, being outside helps a lot. it helps me think clearer.
like, even now, im thinking about high school courses.
i wanna go out to st. kevin's high school in goulds, but i'm not sure about it, so keep your fingers crossed!
another thing that i feel the sunshine does is wakes us up a bit, gets us energy,
and although i apparently have lots, i could always use some more,
seeing as how i dont sleep.

-sidenote; i'm having breakfast for supper. mood increased +2.

i can't wait to watch the sunset with you.

Video Games

Well, here goes.
So, I've been thinking, and I've realized that i'm not much of a gamer. In fact, even when I was younger I couldn't be bothered to sit inside and play a videogame. At least "Gameboys" were portable. But now a days, all you see is kids my age playing Xbox, or PS3, and they're almost ALWAYS inside...and people wonder why kids these days are obese.
I'm not dissing video games, no, i'd get too much hate,
but going out for a walk, jog, run, hell, if you go outside for some fresh air at all,
it'll do you a bit of good.
but besides that,
i do have to say there are a few good games out there. Wii gets you moving, but how many people say 'HEY! Let's go play the Wii!" and actually stand up to do anything?
Not me that's for sure.